Oh my goodness! This has been a very difficult couple of months. The shortness of breath, pounding heart, "catch breath" stuff... I've had, xrays, blood work, ultra-sounds, stress echo, CT scan, more blood work, several doctors visits... and still can't explain what the underlying problem is...
I have been literally unable to do anything... the stuff I love to do here at home... cooking, washing dishes, laundry... it was a real struggle, and still is quite honestly... but I am pressing on, and doing the best I can... thankful that I have a very supportive husband that pitches in and helps, and doesn't mind things getting done slower if they get done at all.
There have been days that I would sit down and cry because I just couldn't walk across the floor without being out of breath... Scary... extremely scary.
This morning I am grateful for the little things I can do now... they may not seem like much, but to me they are HUGE!!! I can do the dishes without having to sit after only a few minutes, I can fold an entire load of laundry without taking a break, I actually walked up a flight of stairs at church having to sit at the top for a minute or two, but I haven't been able to do that for nearly two months. I could play corn hole without to much effort on the breathing with Michelle yesterday...
Today I go to see the doctor to get results of a CT scan and some blood work that I had done this week, and to see what more I need to do... so you could pray that there might be some answers... but if not, I am praising God that He is giving me the strength to get through each day, every minute of each day... praising Him that I am able to greet the morning, and live each day to the fullest.
What does He have planned for me today? I don't know. But I am ready... because with His strength I can do it...
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