Yes, I have to remember.
I have to remember that it was only 2 1/2 months ago that I had major surgery.
I have to remember that 2 1/2 months ago I had a stroke.
I have to remember that my body and brain are still recovering from all of that.
I have to remember that even though I feel GREAT, my body and brain are not healed completely.
I have to remember that it is okay to stop and do nothing.
I have to remember that I need to rest.
I have to remember that rest is good for the healing.
Yes, I have to remember.
Thursday, August 31, 2017
Friday, August 18, 2017
Here it is...
I was thinking I would write a blog... but now I am here my mind is going in so many directions that I don't have any idea of where to start.
So, let me just say that I have been less than I should be. A lot less....
I have been frustrated, angry, felt abandoned... quite honestly I have been a mess... emotionally a train wreck. Yep!!! That has been me this week. It's such a strange feeling... I feel so much better than I have in the last couple of years, and my hip is healing great with no more pain. But, emotionally I am a mess.
I have so many appointments and tests and stuff... that it has all just gotten to me. What's going on? and at times I don't get any answers. What? Why? Do you care? Yes, these are all questions I have asked. I have been less than cordial at times... so not me... I don't like me when I am like that.
I am spending more time in the Word, crying out to God, listening to music and just being quiet... I really need a heart change, and there is only One that can help me with that. I will be seeking and listening. I could use your prayers as well.
Blessed and grateful for these:
I am so thankful for a husband that prays for me, and loves me in spite of me. Thankful for our daughters that love me when I am unlovable, how they put up with me at times is beyond me. And they scold me... go figure.
Thankful for friends and family doing for me when I can't do for myself. I love you and appreciate you, not for what you do, but for the love you show me in what you do. Your calls, cards, meals, visits, rides (many many rides). Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
So, let me just say that I have been less than I should be. A lot less....
I have been frustrated, angry, felt abandoned... quite honestly I have been a mess... emotionally a train wreck. Yep!!! That has been me this week. It's such a strange feeling... I feel so much better than I have in the last couple of years, and my hip is healing great with no more pain. But, emotionally I am a mess.
I have so many appointments and tests and stuff... that it has all just gotten to me. What's going on? and at times I don't get any answers. What? Why? Do you care? Yes, these are all questions I have asked. I have been less than cordial at times... so not me... I don't like me when I am like that.
I am spending more time in the Word, crying out to God, listening to music and just being quiet... I really need a heart change, and there is only One that can help me with that. I will be seeking and listening. I could use your prayers as well.
Blessed and grateful for these:
I am so thankful for a husband that prays for me, and loves me in spite of me. Thankful for our daughters that love me when I am unlovable, how they put up with me at times is beyond me. And they scold me... go figure.
Thankful for friends and family doing for me when I can't do for myself. I love you and appreciate you, not for what you do, but for the love you show me in what you do. Your calls, cards, meals, visits, rides (many many rides). Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
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