I'm not sure what to title this blog...  so I will just type and figure it out later.

I've used the word "overwhelmed" a lot lately...  but I'm not sure it's the right word to use.  Since my stroke in June, and losing the right side vision in both of my eyes, it has been somewhat of a challenge to adjust. And it is hard to describe the sensation to those that have not experienced it.

I find it challenging to be in a crowd with people on all sides, it's like a door is closed to the right.  And when I turn to the right, there are all those people I had no idea were there.  I find it so much easier to talk one on one or two with them standing right there in front of me then being in a crowd of people.  I'm not trying to ignore anyone, it's just "overwhelming" for me to be in a crowd.

And when I am in familiar places, but things have been rearranged...  like last night for instance at CBC for the One Voice concert.  Familiar surroundings, but the chairs were set up differently.  Instead of having the two rows of chairs with the center aisle the chairs were all lined up together.  No center aisle.  And my bearings got all messed up because I couldn't see to the right...  I had to purposefully walk to an individual with my back to the wall so that I wouldn't walk into someone or something.  And when we left, I had to literally hold onto to David's belt loop because there were people on both sides of me, and I just could not see those on my right, so to avoid running into them I followed him closely.

written in spring 2018

Limitations? UGH!!!

What is the meaning of limitation?  according to dictionary.com it is - a limiting condition; restrictive weakness; lack of capacity; inability or handicap.

So, why am I blogging about limitations?  I really didn't want to think about limitations, and I don't want limitations, but I have found I have limitations....

I have always been able and capable to do just about anything, at any time...  and I am struggling with not being able to.  Yep, I have found that I have limitations now.  My mind still races with all kinds of things I want to do, that I would love to do...  but I just can't.  I am adjusting to this new lifestyle of limitations.  Hmpf!!! and I am not adjusting all that well with it.  

Written 2018