Thursday, August 31, 2017

I have to remember...

Yes, I have to remember.

I have to remember that it was only 2 1/2 months ago that I had major surgery.
I have to remember that 2 1/2 months ago I had a stroke.
I have to remember that my body and brain are still recovering from all of that.
I have to remember that even though I feel GREAT, my body and brain are not healed completely.
I have to remember that it is okay to stop and do nothing.
I have to remember that I need to rest.
I have to remember that rest is good for the healing.

Yes, I have to remember.

Friday, August 18, 2017

Here it is...

I was thinking I would write a blog...  but now I am here my mind is going in so many directions that I don't have any idea of where to start.

So, let me just say that I have been less than I should be.  A lot less....

I have been frustrated, angry, felt abandoned... quite honestly I have been a mess...  emotionally a train wreck.  Yep!!!  That has been me this week.  It's such a strange feeling...  I feel so much better than I have in the last couple of years, and my hip is healing great with no more pain.  But, emotionally I am a mess.

I have so many appointments and tests and stuff...  that it has all just gotten to me.  What's going on?  and at times I don't get any answers.  What?  Why?  Do you care?  Yes, these are all questions I have asked. I have been less than cordial at times...  so not me...  I don't like me when I am like that.

I am spending more time in the Word, crying out to God, listening to music and just being quiet...  I really need a heart change, and there is only One that can help me with that.  I will be seeking and listening.  I could use your prayers as well.

Blessed and grateful for these:

I am so thankful for a husband that prays for me, and loves me in spite of me.  Thankful for our daughters that love me when I am unlovable, how they put up with me at times is beyond me.  And they scold me... go figure.

Thankful for friends and family doing for me when I can't do for myself.  I love you and appreciate you, not for what you do, but for the love you show me in what you do.  Your calls, cards, meals, visits, rides (many many rides).  Thank you!  Thank you!  Thank you!

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Praising God through it all...

Oh yes!!!  I am praising God through it all.

It's been a while since I have posted anything on my blog...  and I am grateful that I can still post on my blog.  It was quite a ride to start with, but has been nothing short of miraculous (to me anyways) since.

June 13th I went in for a total hip replacement of my right hip.  All was going well...  prep was good and I was so ready.  Surgery went without a hitch.  And then there was recovery...  apparently not going so good.  Blood pressure was way too low, they were having a hard time getting me stable enough to go to my room.  in the 3rd hour of all of this the nurse that was taking care of me told me that she was not going to leave even though her shift had ended until I was stable and she was going to make sure I got to my room...  she spent the next hour with me, checking and rechecking... finally I was at a point where she felt okay to take me to my room...  she was my angel that afternoon.  Very calming presence.  David was waiting for me when I got to my room, it was so good to see him.  I rested well that evening, with no pain.

Wednesday morning as I woke up I noticed that I was having some vision trouble.  Peripheral on the right side was messed up.  PT came in to get me up, and I mentioned that to them as I was sitting on the edge of the bed...  they helped me stand and that is the last thing I remember.  I had passed out...  and when the therapist checked my pulse, there was none...  *code blue* and all the nurses came running...  I came out of it on my own, thankfully...  but it certainly didn't make David feel very good when he was on his way to my room and all the nurses were running for my room and they were calling my name over and over again.  Yeah...  never a dull moment here...  That day was a day of tests...  CT scan of my brain, ultra-sound of the carotid arteries, and an EKG.  A neurologist was called in...  I had had a small stroke that had affected my eyesight, to what extent, and one or both eyes would be later determined with a follow-up with my eye doctor.  the ultra-sound and EKG were both good...  phew!!!  I was feeling really really good in spite of what had happened.  I was having no hip pain whatsoever.  YES!!!

Thursday morning came, and I told the nurse that I was ready to get up and move...  so that is exactly what I did.  PT came in, and they were amazed that I was doing so well...  walked around the nurses station...  did that a couple of times Thursday, sat up and had dinner in my hip chair...  Friday I walked even more, sat up for my meals and for many hours visiting with David...  and then Saturday morning walked some more and got discharged to GO HOME!

The nurse I had Wednesday was the same nurse I had Saturday...  she was so surprised to see how well I was doing...  She told me I gave her quite a scare, and she was sure I would not be going home this soon...  But, here I was going home...

I have been home since June 17th...  I had in home PT and VNA for two weeks and was discharged to out patient PT.  The walker was gone in a week and I graduated to a cane.  I have not had any pain other than the feeling of a pulled muscle at times.  I am getting some of my independence back...  back to cooking, cleaning, laundry....  still not able to drive....  but praying that I will be able to do that in the near future.

I have had a follow-up appointment with the surgeon and the hip is healing well, with the eye doctor and both of my eyes were affected by the stroke losing the right side vision in both eyes, with the neurologist who thinks some of my peripheral vision in my right eye has returned...  I will find out about that in September when I see the eye doctor for more tests.  I will also be having a heart patch test to check for A-fib, and I will be going to Dartmouth to see a hematologist to see if I have a blood disorder that would explain the stroke.

Through all of this, friends and family have rallied around to help with meals (Janet and Dan, Barb, Bonnie, Kate and John, Melody) visits in the hospital and at home from friends (Michelle, Kate, Cindi, Rowena, Melody, Judy, Barb, Jayne, and the daily visits from Michelle and the little men the first week home so that I wouldn't be alone all day, and Melissa for coming home for a week to be with us/me) beautiful flowers at home and work (Janet and Dan, Kate, Leslie and Bob, Paul and Dona Lynn) rides to appointments and back and forth to work (Michelle, Melissa, Rowena) and the many cards and notes and calls.  Thank you everyone for so much love.  I hope I haven't forgotten anyone.

And then there is my guy who has been with me through it all...  he was at the hospital every day, called me every day...  saw me through the scary moments and has been so encouraging through everything.  Yes, there have been times when I got a bit discouraged, and I still do...  but he is always there, praying me through...  he is my knight in shining armor...  I just love him so.

And thank you God!  For being there...  for your strength and peace.  I called out to you and you answered my plea for help.  You have a plan and purpose for my life...  and you're not done with me yet.  Thank you! I am giving you praise through it all.  How can you use this "cracked pot" today?  I don't know, but I am ready and willing...  I am so grateful to be here...  and pretty much back to normal...  whatever that might be.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

It's a new day... a new starting point... I am determined! Part 2

Well, it has been a week since I "started over".  And it has been a very good week.  I have had plenty to eat, and very yummy food at that.  Except for maybe what I made last night for dinner.  David said it was good, but I was not liking it at all.  So, that being said, it is not going to stay in my recipe folder.  No, it is not.

Every night I would sit with my charts and daily menu and figure out how I did, and every day I stayed in my goal range of 20 or under.  Actually they were anywhere from 12 to 19, so yeah, under 20.

This morning was my weigh in.  One week into it, and I was anxious to see if that 6 month plateau I've been on was defeated.   So, drum roll please....   and YES!!!  it was.  Finally...  down 5 pounds. Okay so the dancing happy feet were just a toe tapping for sure.

It's going to be a very good day...  yesterday was incredible, watch out people 'cause I'm in another one of those moods...  dancing, singing, dancing, and singing some more.

It's a new day...  a new week...  I am going to keep on keeping on.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

It's a new day... a new starting point... I am determined!

So, here I am sitting here thinking.  Researching. And thinking some more.  Yeah...  and here is why.

It has been 1 1/2 years since I started this new way of life.  Healthier eating and healthier living, and oh yes, don't forget the exercising which I am really loving.  Can't forget that.

I have been plateaued now for 6 months, not that that is a bad thing, because it definitely isn't.  I mean I am so very happy to be where I am, and the way I feel now is so much healthier, and I am 57 pounds less.  But on the other hand, I've worked hard to get where I am, and I am still working hard to get even healthier.

So this morning, I decided that this is a new day, and it is a good starting point for me to start over from where I am, and I am determined...  no, not determined...  I am VERY determined.

I have looked over all the papers and information that I got from my doctor way back then, and I have checked my own diary of things over this period of time...  I've been eating in the strict to moderate carb range, and been more than satisfied, so now I am going to go to the strict (Ketogenic) of 20 carbs a day.

So there you have it...  It's my new day and starting point.  And I am VERY determined.

Here I go.  I know I can do this.  I am on a mission to be even healthier.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

So, here we are....

Almost 2 months into this new year...  time is flying by, isn't it?  Thought I would blog out a little update of how it's going...

I've got to say...  it's going GREAT!!!  I'm not saying that it has always been easy...  there are days that are challenging...  but, I am gaining each and every day...  feeling so much better than I have in years...  I have more energy...  more strength...  more stamina...  more...  well, I don't know...  just more...

I really like all the foods I can have too...  trying new recipes has been a blast...  I just love cooking and taste testing...  and EATING...  healthier.

My diabetes is back under control, my cholesterol is back to normal, blood pressure excellent...  the weight has stayed off...  I have been plateaued for quite some time...  but I am not going up, so I am very happy with how this past year has gone.  At my last office visit with my PCP... he called me a model patient...  :)

I am exercising every day...  I'm doing something every day...  even at work...  I take time to use the equipment that has been donated to our NotSoFitClub EVERY day...  and I still do the weights and push-ups at home.  Yep!!!  The NotSoFitClub?  a small group that gets together once a week to do chair aerobics and spend time in fellowship...  it's so much fun!

Well, I don't have anything else right now...  except, I am keeping on keeping on...  here I go into another year...  I've got this...

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

It's been a while...

Well looking back I see it's been about 5 months since my last blog...  a lot has happened in that 5 months for sure...  it's been quite a ride as I continue with my new "lifestyle"  I am feeling so good.  Changes are taking place in me that have totally amazed and quite honestly shocked me.  I am continuing to lose weight, but more than that I have started exercising again.  That is something I hadn't been able to do for more than a year.  It was a challenge to get started, and really pathetic actually.  I had become so weak from doing nothing for so long, that my body forgot how to react to exercise.  It really was saying NOOOO....  and I was saying YEEESSS...  and I won.  :)  I started doing push-ups because of a challenge that my son-by-heart was doing...  if he can do it, I can do it...  that was my attitude...  and I did it.  22 push-ups a day for 22 days.  And I have not stopped doing them after the 22 days.  It felt good, and there are days that I continue on to 40 push-ups.

I needed to get moving again, I needed to gain some strength back.  So, the push-ups continued, I began with 2 lb. hand weights and started doing some arm strengthening exercises...  I have moved to the 5 lb. hand weights, and am looking forward to adding more weight in a month or so.  Wow!!!  it feels so good to be moving.  I knew that I was needing to add the leg exercises in there, and found a stationary bike on the side of the road FREE and in near perfect condition and brought that home.  I was riding a couple of miles a day, and then the inevitable happened.  I fell and injured my hip about 9 weeks ago...  WHAT???  Last week I decided that I needed to give the bike another try...  so gritting the teeth and starting over, I have been able to ride 1/2 mile almost every day...  there are days that I can't stand the pain, and stay away from that corner of the living room...  So that has slowed me down on the bike,  But it is not slowing down the push-ups, weights, and now I have added some planks.  I need to move, and even though it isn't much, I am very pleased with what I can do...  after all, I am a "gray haired grammie".

So here are my newest accomplishments with this new lifestyle in numbers.  Not only have I gotten rid of my diabetic medication, but my blood pressure medication has been cut in half and maybe the next visit I can get rid of it altogether.  My cholesterol is staying at 170.  I have lost to date 53 pounds, and have had to buy new clothes for a second time. I actually weigh less now than I did when we got married.   David is not so sure about the shopping part of it, but he has been very encouraging and helpful through this whole thing.

I am feeling really good about my accomplishments.  I still have a ways to go...  and it is definitely going to be a "lifestyle" that I am planning on staying with for the rest of my earthly life.

And a great big thank you to all of you for encouraging and loving me over this past year... Especially Kristin for asking me to be involved in the RENEW-Summer Strong and FALL into Routine groups, and Sharon for being my accountability partner even though we are 1500 miles apart, and Pam with your private facebook messages of encouragement, and Alan for your messages that simply said "I love you!"  And lastly a great big thank you to the love of my life and our two precious daughters... because of you I am healthier...  you have been my life support system.  Someone to vent to, to be me with, you have loved me through a very hard and difficult time in my life...  you prayed for me, you encouraged me.  If you had not been there...  I don't think I would be here.  I love you so very much, and I am determined to be around for a very long time.  Healthier and stronger.

Philippians 4:13  "I can do all things through him who strengthens me."

James 1:2-4  "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."