I know...

I am tired of feeling like this... I've got to admit that finding joy(James 1:2) in this illness (or whatever it is) hasn't been easy... I do know that I am not in this alone (Isaiah 41:13)... and that "I can do all things through him who strengthens me." (Philippians 4:13)

I would love to say that we have answers, and that I am well... but I can't. We still have no answers. I am still having the breathing issues... I am doing things much slower, kind of like slow motion so that I can catch my breath in the middle of what I'm doing so that I don't experience the pounding heart like I was... and talking, I have cut back on that too. Yeah, I even run out of air when I'm talking, so sometimes my sentences are stopped mid stream to take a breath... singing, I love to sing... can be quite a chore... but I will be praising Him in song, maybe not as loud as I would like to... I know he hears me even when I whisper.

So even though I haven't gotten any medical answers, except that every test so far says that I am healthy... this is what I do know...

I know that I have been allowed to go through this for some reason... I know it has slowed me down, and that has given me more time to be in His Word, to study and learn and spend more time in prayer and conversation with Him. It has made me stop and think about what's important to me. My priorities and goals have changed over the last 3 months for sure. I'm not rushing from one thing to the next just because I can... I am asking Him for guidance and direction in everything...

I am asking that His will be done in me and through me... I am ready to be used by Him...